Christmas oh Christmas

PERINGATAN: Christmas is coming fen. 

Hari ini cukup epic di kantor. Banyak contractor dateng cuman buat confirm materials tapi meeting nya lama nya se ampun ampun. Tanya ini itu ga beres2. Belom lagi jadwal dry lay stone yang berturut2 dari hari jumat trus senen lagi. Argh. Ternyata menjelang Holiday seasson ini banyak juga kerjaan yang perlu di beresin, padahal minggu lalu gue free. Hahahaha. 

Yang bikin gue sedih adalah.. 

Gue lupa kalo rabu depan itu Christmas! How come you can forget about it fen?! Bayangkan, gue mau buat appointment dry lay stone di hari rabu? Then the supplier said ' hmmm. Next wed is a christmas day' gue tiba2 diem bentar n OH NOOOO how come i can forget about it! 

Natal buat gue adalah tanggal merah yang paling penting. Biasanya gue gak akan melewatkan natal gue begitu aja. Bahkan seminggu sebelom natal biasanya gue uda bener2 holiday mood, but this year ... Is diffrent. 

Gak tau gue yang over thinking, too much thinking, kebanyakan mikir, aplaah itu name it! Tapi gue merasa banyak hal yg perlu di pikirin buat taon depan n gue gau kira2 bisa ngakkk gue ? 

I keep telling my self ' stop it fen! Don't over think, just relax and enjoy the show' 

Jangan lupa feni, Christmas is arround the corner, are you ready for it? 

Psalm 23

One of my fav chapter in book of pslam.

Psalm 23

(1) The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 
(2) He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
(3) He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 
(4) Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 
(5) Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 
(6) Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

This chapter always remaind me of if God is with me who shall i fear? What shall i fear? Nothing. 

He lead me, He guide me, He comfort me. 

What can beat it? Nothing right! 

Blessed Thrusday! 

As weekend is coming soon and I can't wait for holiday mood. 

Cheers, 

Fen

Christmas 2013

Who doesn't love Christmas right? 

I always love Christmas! One of my fav part is card exchange. :) 

See how sweet they are! They're more than just a friend of mine.
I thank God everytime I remember them. 

Happy holiday! 

This one from Sandra. She DIY all the packaging and the card! 

from ci Keny, one of my fav sister! she's the most nicest person i've ever meet.

from ci Ina. orang yang sering gue marahin gara-gara ga mau nyari kerja. 

this one from Mr and Mrs Anthony Steven. I love this couple! 

dari cacamarica hey hey! 

she's my travelling buddy, my broken heart partner, my karoke pren, and not to mention my BFFFFL!
she's getting married next year! excited yet so sad, I must find my other travelling buddy. They say finding your travelling partner is as hard as you finding your life partner. I would say YES, But, I've got the best one!  

From emiche! 

Dari ade pungut gue. she's sweet and rese! I love her.
ps i love the way she describe ear that listen and eye don't judge.  :)

not to mention from my one and only sis, this is our first tradition to have card exchange and gift exchange. I love her so much! 

and not only my church-mate and family,  even in the office too! How grateful I am surrounded by lovely people. 

Look! there's a present under my Christmas tree

#Feni Randomness_v2

are you excited for 2014? I am!

I don't know what will going to happen next year.

highlight of the year is ...
I will be handling 3 wedding next year.
Yes! 3 Wedding.
normally each year I will just handling one wedding and next year 3 Wedding.
excited yet nervous.

Why?
this is my very first time handle a wedding mix homogeneous group with our youth group.
they all very professional yet very details.
I hear a lot from my friend how good they are in handling an event, how details they are, how professional they are and I was like WHAAAAAATTTT??
I scared, I can't meet their expectation.

if you comparing me with their wedding organizer I am nothing dude.
... and now it keep haunted me. How am I can meet at lease up to his standard?

so what I can do now?
learning.. (of course right? learn from the master, learn from mister google, learn from the expert)
trying.. ( no choice, I have too. giving up is not event my option. Never give up)
praying (HAHA. a must list. I can do all things through Him who strengthen me)

and I will take it as a challenge.
a challenge for a better me.
a challenge for an experience.
a challenge for myself.

and again note to my self, giving up is not my option.
Never give up Fen!

ps: But still, if the expert willing to taking over me, I will really glad! :P
pss: this is not giving up, but smart move. HAHAHA.

Christmas!

Christmas,
Did you feel excited about it ? I do feel excited about Christmas.

When I was a kid, one month before Christmas I used to write up all my wish list. I remember Barbie is my no 1 wish list and during Christmas eve I already put up very nice basket for my Christmas present. I used to decorate the basket and I pray that ‘santa' will gave me all my wish-list on the next day I am so excited I always woke up early in the morning, just to check my present and I'm so happy because ‘santa' really gave what I want!

But after growing up I am realizing that santa is do not exist.
There is no more secret santa, no more wish list to santa. It's all done up by my parents.

At first I feel so what is the meaning of Christmas without santa?
But I realize, I was wrong. Is not about the santa is about someone born for you with a purpose.

For me, is still the season of giving.
He gave His life just for you.

isn't wonderful? What can beat it?
He is the reason in this season!

Greatful.

'Until God open the next door, 

Praise Him in the hallway.' Unknown 

In everything be greatful. 

Iam greatful. 

For my family, 

For my minstry, 

For my colleagues, 

For my job, 

For my problem. 

#Feni Randomness_1

I'm so much blessed.

Baru tau ada salah satu orang APLT dateng dari Taiwan, hanya bermodalkan 80 dolar untuk 14 hari tinggal di Singapore. 

Sebegitu hausnya akan Tuhan, 

Sebegitu rindunya sama Tuhan, 

Sebegitu kepeingin revival di Taiwan terjadi. 

Oh man! Jleb jleb jleb. 

Thank God for remains me this. 

Glorious Ruins

Sometime in live, 

There's a things that God let it happen, but actually you don't know why. 

You try to find out, 

But all the answer is why? Why? Why? And why? 

So many why here in there. 

They said, everything happen for a reason. It's hard though. not as easy as when you hear it. 

Especially when it happen and ruin your plan. 

I can choose to mad, 

But

Now i choose to said, even i don't know what the reason is, i know that God let this happen with some purpose. 

I will call this is glourius ruin. 

It's ruin my plan, 

But i know something big will happen. And let His name be glorified.

Choose right feni. 

Choose right! 

Here my theme song: 

Glorious Ruins

Let the ruins come to life
In the beauty of Your Name
Rising up from the ashes
God forever You reign

And my soul will find refuge
In the shadow of Your wings
I will love You forever
And forever I'll sing

Never give up_v2

Today i learn something, 

You might think you have a big problem and you feel wanna give up,

 but you never realize that someone out there he/she have even more bigger problem that yours but he/she is never give up. 

Do you have any reason to give up? 

I don't think i have. 

Never give up.

Have you ever feel so sad, 

Until you can't cry. 

That what's i feel now. 

Help me, Lord.

Don't Forget God's Promise to you

This morning,

I do believe that God is my God that answer my prayer. 

quite some time I never open Joyce Meyer daily devotion, and this morning when I was sitting down in the office I open it and ... 

Don't Forget God's Promise

by Joyce Meyer - posted August 18, 2013

[Abraham], having waited long and endured patiently, realized and obtained [in the birth of Isaac as a pledge of what was to come] what God had promised him.
—Hebrews 6:15

God gave Abraham the promise of an heir, but he had to wait much longer than he could have ever imagined. Today’s Scripture says that Abraham “waited long and endured patiently.” During those times, I am sure he had to remind himself of God’s original promise over and over again. Extended periods of waiting can tend to cause us to doubt that we ever heard from God at all.

Perhaps you are waiting on something right now and need to remind yourself of what God originally spoke to your heart.

Doubt and unbelief did attack Abraham and when they did he offered thanksgiving and praise. When Satan attacks, we must not be passive, taking no action at all. We should war against him and his lies by reminding him of God’s Word and promises to us. Speak them out loud, meditate on them, and write them down. When Habakkuk was waiting on God he was instructed to write the vision on tablets plainly so that everyone passing by might read it (see Habakkuk 2:2). Perhaps this was an Old Testament version of a billboard!

Fight the good fight of faith and hold fast your confession. No matter how you might feel right now, don’t give up because God is faithful, and just as He fulfilled His promise to Abraham at the appointed time, He will also fulfill His word to you.

Oh well, quite answering all my question to Him. some more, this morning during my train from house to office, i opened up Psalm, and again..

I read from Psalm 19-23 

God is know me best.

He really know how to makes me smile, and for sure He really know how to comfort me. 

so the answer of all my question is 'Don't forget God's promise to you'  

Have a blessed week ahead. :) 

Giving up? No!

There's one day i have a conversation with one of my leader.

Me: how come you never feeling tired of all this?

Him: the things that getting tired it's only your body, but when i'm thinking to what He has done to me especially His blood, it's nothing compare to what i've done. That's the things that always help me to giving my best to Him.

This short conversation between me and him, it's enough to open my eyes.

I know,
I'm tired, but He never tired on me.
I'm about to give up, but He never give up on me.

Then, do i have a reason to just step back ? No, i don't have.