HELLO MAY!

Hey ya all!

uda May! OH NO! cepet aja yah. hahahaha.

gue tiba2 kepikiran siapa sih kita ini sampe Tuhan mau pake kita? sampe Tuhan pilih kita?

OMG tiap gue inget ini, rasanya tuh gue pengen nangis trus.
siapa gue ini? Tuhan mau pilih gue.

sejauh apapun kita mencoba buat ngejauhin Tuhan, tapi kasih nya Tuhan itu ga pernah sedikitpun menjauh dari kita.
sejauh apapun kita jatuh, selalu ada tanganNya yang selalu ada buat narik kita balik ke Dia.

jadi inget ceritanya Jonah, yang dia di suruh ke Niniveh tapi dia malah ke Trasih, and again Tuhan malah suru ikan besar makan si Jonah. sukur-sukur si Jonah masih bisa idup di dalem perut ikan. kebanyang donk, di luar perut ikan aja uda bau amis aje, apalagi di dalem perut ikan, kebayang amis nya kaya gimana noh. 
kebayang gak Tuhan masih sayang banget sama Jonah, dia ga langsung di musnahin, tapi di kasih 'peringatan' untung akhirnya Jonah sadar and dia mau ke Niniveh. 

same thing sama hidup kita, kadang kita suka ngeyel sama apa yg Tuhan benernya mau dalem hidup kita. kita masih semau kita, seenak kita jalanin hidup kita yang menurut kita itu BAIK, padahal benernya Tuhan punya rencana yang JAUH LEBIH BAIK dari pada rencana kita. ngeyel juga sih ye kita.

menurt gue hal di atas tuh sering banget kita denger yah, cuman kenapa sih kita sebagai manusia masih aja sering ngeyel. masih sering lari dari rancangan Tuhan. padahal Tuhan bilang Kuk yang di pasang itu ringan n enak. tapi masih aja dasar manusia. hahahaha. :P uda gitu Tuhan juga bilang pasti hal hal yang kita lewatin itu BISA kita lewatin, tapi tetep aja kita masih sering ngerengek2 bilang ke Tuhan ' gak bisaaaaaaaaaa' dasar manusia. haohoahoahoa. :P

so do we really have a reason to not to obey Him? no I don't think so.

okay, currently I was praying about something that will totally change my life.
so, tolong bantu doa nya ya temen-temen.
gue gak mau sampe gue lari dari panggilan Tuhan,
gue gak mau sampe gue ngeyel kaya Jonah.
hahaha.

so, please selipin gue di dalem doa doa kalian. hehehe.

Cheers ya all! :)


so, songs of the week:

Who am I - Casting Crown
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

randomness march

Update dikit ah biar gaul-gaul gimana gitu,

Current situation:
BUSY! Sibuk pisan!

sibuk kerjaan, sibuk nge-WO, sibuk pelayanan, sibuk meeting, sibuk pacaran (loh?) , sibuk tidur (hah?), sibuk makan (hueh?), sibuk lahh pokoknya!
kapan sibuk jalan-jalannya nih gue? hahahaha.
#maunye #mimpinye #kepengennye #citacitanye

beneran isi post ini emang gak penting sih, cuman iseng doank lagi bosen ngeliatin specification yang ga ada abis nya. hehehehe.

semangat Feni! you can do it!

I will say of the Lord ' He is my refuge and my fortress, my God in whom I trust' Psalm 91:2

Happy blessed Wed fellas!

Cheers,
Feni

randomness Feb

what's up people?

I'm sitting in the office and waiting.
huh, I hate waiting.

but, I can say I have a great Monday and February! :)
HE HE HE HE.

bonus is coming soon.
my buddy is in relationship soon.
my best friend is getting married soon.

i love Monday,
i love February,


:)

Cheers,
Fen

Hope and Faith

I have read my morning devotion and it's all about hope and faith. 


there's one quote that jleb jleb jleb,

hope it is the only things stronger than fear.

when your hope is dulled down you're less likely step out in faith.

Then talking about faith jadi di ingetin kadang yahh kita bilang kita punya faith but  we want to take it into our own. so what's faith is? if we're the one who control. so that is not faith. 
Let God do whatever He want to do.
so do you trust God? 




you say you trust God but you don't let Him work it out for you dan kita mencampuri urusannya Tuhan.

Kenapa kita harus membatasi Dia yang tidak terbatas?


Happy Chinese New year all! :)

Cheers,
Feni

Monday (not so) blue

Happy monday! 

I'm sitting quietly on my way to TUAS. 

Jauh banget. 

Less work, nothing really have to do. Because of CNY festive. 

Maybe can plan for our Bali trips! Excited! 

25 pax to arrange. Crazy! 

Will update when finish plan this Bali trips. I think i really can open travel agency. Hahahahah. 

Happy monday all! 

Looking fwd for holiday! 

random Tuesday!

i am in the office, sitting down , and feel so sleepy right now.
enough said..

sleeping soon..

happy sleepy Tuesday guys!

monday randomness

Happy Monday my silent reader! 

I'm grateful for Monday.
biasa nya sih Monday blue gitu deh, cuman gue percaya segala sesuatu yang di mulai dari upcapan syukur itu pasti hari lo bakal jadi berbeda. 

then, abis sampe kantor buka komputer baca berita, nyapa temen2 lewat gtalk and skype lalu buka devotion nya si max lucado trus ada some words yang bikin gue jleb jleb jleb


When God looks at you, he doesn’t see you; He sees the One who surrounds you. Failure’s not a concern for you; your victory is secure. How could you not be courageous?  In Hebrews 10:22, the writer says, “Since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus—let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith.”


langsung GUE BANGET NIH. lately gue bener-bener don't have any courageous. gak berani melangkah, gak berani bertindak, ga brani ngapa-ngapain. because i was to scared! padahal uda beberapa kali yah di ingetin buat ga usa takut, melangkah aja, uda beberapa kali di ingetin lewat temen-temen terdekat, tapiiiiiiiiiii gue masi bandel. gak mau denger, sampe hari ini langsung jleb jleb jleb. 

enough said, 

BE STRONG AND VERY COURAGEOUS
for He is always by my side. :) 

#Feni randomness_v3

Last night I have deep conversation with one of my best buddy. we have almost about the same problem, then there's one statement that hit us,

actually what we're looking for?
He is all we need. (fullstop)

.. i was stunt and remember what God told me past few days. Focus on Him and i will get all the answer, what I need to do is just trust Him.

sometime in life, did you ever worried before? worried about all the silly things, worried about unimportant things, worried about everything, but we never realize that God is our DAD. He is the King and He is our DAD. like uh actually you no need to be worried when your dad is a king right ?

All we need is just stay focus on Him, do what make Him happy, please Him and make Him proud.
oh well, I almost forget what the things that always in my prayer

to make He proud of me, until when we meet He will said well done fen, you're my beloved daughter and I am so proud of you. (with His charming smile for sure)


so, noted to my self, Let's get focus on Him.
not to our problem,
not to our silly mind,
not to ourself,
not to human,
but to Him.

Psalm 16

The Message (MSG)

A David Song

16 1-2 Keep me safe, O God,
    I’ve run for dear life to you.
I say to God, “Be my Lord!”
    Without you, nothing makes sense.

3 And these God-chosen lives all around—
    what splendid friends they make!

4 Don’t just go shopping for a god.
    Gods are not for sale.
I swear I’ll never treat god-names
    like brand-names.

5-6 My choice is you, God, first and only.
    And now I find I’m your choice!
You set me up with a house and yard.
    And then you made me your heir!

7-8 The wise counsel God gives when I’m awake
    is confirmed by my sleeping heart.
Day and night I’ll stick with God;
    I’ve got a good thing going and I’m not letting go.

9-10 I’m happy from the inside out,
    and from the outside in, I’m firmly formed.
You canceled my ticket to hell—
    that’s not my destination!

11 Now you’ve got my feet on the life path,
    all radiant from the shining of your face.
Ever since you took my hand,
    I’m on the right way.

Randomness entering 2014

Happy new year fellas! 

Mumpung masih January and blom basi-basi banget. Hehehehe. 

What's your resolution? 

I have mine! Hehehe. 

Satu hal yang di akhir tahun 2013 n di awal 2014 , cuman Taat dan setia. Short yet it's powerful msg for me. Percaya aja Tuhan yang pegang setir nya. :) 

One things that i desire in my heart Lord, to hunger after You alone. 

Cheers and blessed Jan, 

Fen

Christmas oh Christmas

PERINGATAN: Christmas is coming fen. 

Hari ini cukup epic di kantor. Banyak contractor dateng cuman buat confirm materials tapi meeting nya lama nya se ampun ampun. Tanya ini itu ga beres2. Belom lagi jadwal dry lay stone yang berturut2 dari hari jumat trus senen lagi. Argh. Ternyata menjelang Holiday seasson ini banyak juga kerjaan yang perlu di beresin, padahal minggu lalu gue free. Hahahaha. 

Yang bikin gue sedih adalah.. 

Gue lupa kalo rabu depan itu Christmas! How come you can forget about it fen?! Bayangkan, gue mau buat appointment dry lay stone di hari rabu? Then the supplier said ' hmmm. Next wed is a christmas day' gue tiba2 diem bentar n OH NOOOO how come i can forget about it! 

Natal buat gue adalah tanggal merah yang paling penting. Biasanya gue gak akan melewatkan natal gue begitu aja. Bahkan seminggu sebelom natal biasanya gue uda bener2 holiday mood, but this year ... Is diffrent. 

Gak tau gue yang over thinking, too much thinking, kebanyakan mikir, aplaah itu name it! Tapi gue merasa banyak hal yg perlu di pikirin buat taon depan n gue gau kira2 bisa ngakkk gue ? 

I keep telling my self ' stop it fen! Don't over think, just relax and enjoy the show' 

Jangan lupa feni, Christmas is arround the corner, are you ready for it? 

Psalm 23

One of my fav chapter in book of pslam.

Psalm 23

(1) The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 
(2) He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
(3) He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 
(4) Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 
(5) Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 
(6) Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

This chapter always remaind me of if God is with me who shall i fear? What shall i fear? Nothing. 

He lead me, He guide me, He comfort me. 

What can beat it? Nothing right! 

Blessed Thrusday! 

As weekend is coming soon and I can't wait for holiday mood. 

Cheers, 

Fen

Christmas 2013

Who doesn't love Christmas right? 

I always love Christmas! One of my fav part is card exchange. :) 

See how sweet they are! They're more than just a friend of mine.
I thank God everytime I remember them. 

Happy holiday! 

This one from Sandra. She DIY all the packaging and the card! 

from ci Keny, one of my fav sister! she's the most nicest person i've ever meet.

from ci Ina. orang yang sering gue marahin gara-gara ga mau nyari kerja. 

this one from Mr and Mrs Anthony Steven. I love this couple! 

dari cacamarica hey hey! 

she's my travelling buddy, my broken heart partner, my karoke pren, and not to mention my BFFFFL!
she's getting married next year! excited yet so sad, I must find my other travelling buddy. They say finding your travelling partner is as hard as you finding your life partner. I would say YES, But, I've got the best one!  

From emiche! 

Dari ade pungut gue. she's sweet and rese! I love her.
ps i love the way she describe ear that listen and eye don't judge.  :)

not to mention from my one and only sis, this is our first tradition to have card exchange and gift exchange. I love her so much! 

and not only my church-mate and family,  even in the office too! How grateful I am surrounded by lovely people. 

Look! there's a present under my Christmas tree

#Feni Randomness_v2

are you excited for 2014? I am!

I don't know what will going to happen next year.

highlight of the year is ...
I will be handling 3 wedding next year.
Yes! 3 Wedding.
normally each year I will just handling one wedding and next year 3 Wedding.
excited yet nervous.

Why?
this is my very first time handle a wedding mix homogeneous group with our youth group.
they all very professional yet very details.
I hear a lot from my friend how good they are in handling an event, how details they are, how professional they are and I was like WHAAAAAATTTT??
I scared, I can't meet their expectation.

if you comparing me with their wedding organizer I am nothing dude.
... and now it keep haunted me. How am I can meet at lease up to his standard?

so what I can do now?
learning.. (of course right? learn from the master, learn from mister google, learn from the expert)
trying.. ( no choice, I have too. giving up is not event my option. Never give up)
praying (HAHA. a must list. I can do all things through Him who strengthen me)

and I will take it as a challenge.
a challenge for a better me.
a challenge for an experience.
a challenge for myself.

and again note to my self, giving up is not my option.
Never give up Fen!

ps: But still, if the expert willing to taking over me, I will really glad! :P
pss: this is not giving up, but smart move. HAHAHA.

Christmas!

Christmas,
Did you feel excited about it ? I do feel excited about Christmas.

When I was a kid, one month before Christmas I used to write up all my wish list. I remember Barbie is my no 1 wish list and during Christmas eve I already put up very nice basket for my Christmas present. I used to decorate the basket and I pray that ‘santa' will gave me all my wish-list on the next day I am so excited I always woke up early in the morning, just to check my present and I'm so happy because ‘santa' really gave what I want!

But after growing up I am realizing that santa is do not exist.
There is no more secret santa, no more wish list to santa. It's all done up by my parents.

At first I feel so what is the meaning of Christmas without santa?
But I realize, I was wrong. Is not about the santa is about someone born for you with a purpose.

For me, is still the season of giving.
He gave His life just for you.

isn't wonderful? What can beat it?
He is the reason in this season!

Greatful.

'Until God open the next door, 

Praise Him in the hallway.' Unknown 

In everything be greatful. 

Iam greatful. 

For my family, 

For my minstry, 

For my colleagues, 

For my job, 

For my problem. 

#Feni Randomness_1

I'm so much blessed.

Baru tau ada salah satu orang APLT dateng dari Taiwan, hanya bermodalkan 80 dolar untuk 14 hari tinggal di Singapore. 

Sebegitu hausnya akan Tuhan, 

Sebegitu rindunya sama Tuhan, 

Sebegitu kepeingin revival di Taiwan terjadi. 

Oh man! Jleb jleb jleb. 

Thank God for remains me this. 

Glorious Ruins

Sometime in live, 

There's a things that God let it happen, but actually you don't know why. 

You try to find out, 

But all the answer is why? Why? Why? And why? 

So many why here in there. 

They said, everything happen for a reason. It's hard though. not as easy as when you hear it. 

Especially when it happen and ruin your plan. 

I can choose to mad, 

But

Now i choose to said, even i don't know what the reason is, i know that God let this happen with some purpose. 

I will call this is glourius ruin. 

It's ruin my plan, 

But i know something big will happen. And let His name be glorified.

Choose right feni. 

Choose right! 

Here my theme song: 

Glorious Ruins

Let the ruins come to life
In the beauty of Your Name
Rising up from the ashes
God forever You reign

And my soul will find refuge
In the shadow of Your wings
I will love You forever
And forever I'll sing

Never give up_v2

Today i learn something, 

You might think you have a big problem and you feel wanna give up,

 but you never realize that someone out there he/she have even more bigger problem that yours but he/she is never give up. 

Do you have any reason to give up? 

I don't think i have. 

Never give up.

Have you ever feel so sad, 

Until you can't cry. 

That what's i feel now. 

Help me, Lord.

Don't Forget God's Promise to you

This morning,

I do believe that God is my God that answer my prayer. 

quite some time I never open Joyce Meyer daily devotion, and this morning when I was sitting down in the office I open it and ... 

Don't Forget God's Promise

by Joyce Meyer - posted August 18, 2013

[Abraham], having waited long and endured patiently, realized and obtained [in the birth of Isaac as a pledge of what was to come] what God had promised him.
—Hebrews 6:15

God gave Abraham the promise of an heir, but he had to wait much longer than he could have ever imagined. Today’s Scripture says that Abraham “waited long and endured patiently.” During those times, I am sure he had to remind himself of God’s original promise over and over again. Extended periods of waiting can tend to cause us to doubt that we ever heard from God at all.

Perhaps you are waiting on something right now and need to remind yourself of what God originally spoke to your heart.

Doubt and unbelief did attack Abraham and when they did he offered thanksgiving and praise. When Satan attacks, we must not be passive, taking no action at all. We should war against him and his lies by reminding him of God’s Word and promises to us. Speak them out loud, meditate on them, and write them down. When Habakkuk was waiting on God he was instructed to write the vision on tablets plainly so that everyone passing by might read it (see Habakkuk 2:2). Perhaps this was an Old Testament version of a billboard!

Fight the good fight of faith and hold fast your confession. No matter how you might feel right now, don’t give up because God is faithful, and just as He fulfilled His promise to Abraham at the appointed time, He will also fulfill His word to you.

Oh well, quite answering all my question to Him. some more, this morning during my train from house to office, i opened up Psalm, and again..

I read from Psalm 19-23 

God is know me best.

He really know how to makes me smile, and for sure He really know how to comfort me. 

so the answer of all my question is 'Don't forget God's promise to you'  

Have a blessed week ahead. :)